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A little vogon poetry..

*grinz*

See, see the paranoid sky
Marvel at its big green depths.
Tell me, eleanor do you
Wonder why the hippo ignores you?
Why its foobly stare
makes you feel groggy.
I can tell you, it is
Worried by your tingpariwil facial growth
That looks like
A ice.
What’s more, it knows
Your pert potting shed
Smells of tree frog.
Everything under the big paranoid sky
Asks why, why do you even bother?
You only charm farts.

damn.. hehehhe get your own here..

Eeewww…. Just accidentally drink a mouthful of coffee pulp.. stirred the cup out of habit before taking a sip (more of a big gulp really). 3in1s aren’t suppose to have pulp in it! Oh well it’s made in indo after all.. many things that aren’t suppose to be actually ‘become’ over here. What a wonderful land full of possibilities *groan*.

Been reading Neil Gaiman & Terry Pratchett’s “Good Omens”. Story written around the Apocalypse, brilliant work, pretty bloody hilarious. Would be a winner over Da Vinci’s code any day ( Now this one to me is like a cheap version of Indiana Jones adventure based on loose research claiming to be much more than what it is. Full of cliché characters, unsuspected hero in a well dressed young handsome intellect and unsuspectedly intelligent and brave beautiful women *eck!* ) Good Omens in the other hand is full of witty sinister humour, eccentric characters, a good jazzing up to the good ol’ battle of good and evil. More my kind of humour I guess.. I do like Pratchett’s writing style. Maybe I should try Gaiman’s other books. Haven’t really finished Good omens, got a bit left, expecting an unexpected ending like you should expect from any of Pratchett’s books *grinz*..

“According to the Nice and Accurate Prophecies of Agnes Nutter – the world’s only totally reliable guide to the future – the world will end on a Saturday. Next Saturday in fact just after tea…”

For now.. back to scanning sheets after sheets of humongous A1 drawings for the sake of building a bloody digital folio or an A3 printed one for that matter.. (A1 is HUGE as to compare to my A4 scanner *bleah*) why on earth I didn’t make more folios digitally??

NB: Written or rather typed out in my new little ‘office’ an oddly shaped guest room transformed to workspace/store room (to my left stacks of up to 100 pair of shoes in their boxes each neatly labelled with a polaroid of the content, behind me entire wall length of shelves heavily laden with files, books, CDs, stuff.. to my right my golf bag and a wide brown folding table probably as old as I am with a scanner and stacks of A1 folio sitting on it, a dressing mirror stuck on the wall rather oddly next to the monitor, towering stack of plastic boxes to its left with my mom’s Toyota electrical sewing machine as the pinnacle..) got to change the yellow lighting, gives me headache.. or maybe it’s just the room hehe..

could not sleep untill 4++ am this morning!! *grumble* i really shouldn’t have taken the afternoon nap, never really was a ‘nap’ person.. but when i do i CANNOT get up before 3 hrs! it just makes me feel lethargic afterwards and then it’ll lead to a sleepless night. so i woke up at 8 30 and the weather ain’t helping.. typical tropical hot clammy sultry weather.. clouds hanging evenly, ash coloured sky with still still air heavily ladden with moisture. so where’s the rain?? get on with it already. man i’m grumpy today… feeling out of place, out of purpose, out of destination, out of focus, out of cest, out of synch, out of myself. *sigh* yep today i feel like i’m diagonally parked in a parallel universe.

my ditz of a sister’s gone back to philly *sob* the house’s going to be considerably quieter.. and boring…  though it does mean i get my own bed back all to myself again hehe.. we don’t get to see much of each other so when we do we still sleep in the same bed nearly every night… sometime more because we just heard a creepy story before bed time *lol* it’s so much fun having her around. we have a lot to laugh about, well half the time at her own ditzy behaviour hehee… well jenni’s not jenni if she’s not ditzy *grinz* so, now that she’s gone, it’s time for me to put my life in order. it’s not exactly in a mess, just that there’s so much uncertainty about what will happen next to me. there’s been some great changes. real abrupt ones too… though i must say the past year or so things have been directing this way like a snow ball rolling down a slope, try as i might to stop them, i just couldn’t. then again i always believe things always happen for the better even if i can’t see it at the moment. Quite greatful i’m back home for now, been awhile since i actually spend so much time among family. I realise now no matter how self sufficient i can get, i’m not the kind of person who can live alone. i need company.. i get miserable living on my own… i really hope i won’t get to do it much more anymore..

my room’s done!!YAY! finally.. now on to more important things. enough break already. a little afraid of things to come. then again who hasn’t got fear for the unknown and besides how boring would life be if you always know where you’re going?? just not the way i live my life so far hehe… but things (not just about me, in general..) have been looking pretty grim… there’s been a few devastating natural disasters to begin with.. and now in indonesia the economy’s going down and prospect isn’t good.. Rupiah’s sufferring, shortage of energy leading to enormous jump in oil prices and electricity cut every few days or so in some parts of indonesia… you can feel dark ominous stormclouds looming in the horizon, the vibe is not too good right now, i’m worried worse things might happen in the close future…. i can only pray it will be fine… i’m sure it will, it always does.. eventually

"The Lord guides us in the way we should go and protects those who please him. If they fall they will not stay down, because the Lord will help them up." — Psalm 37.23-24

That’s goodnews indeed.. :O)

That’s the heading of someone’s journal. He actually said that looting is ok and it’s justifiable. Can you believe that? I’m furious!! In the event of hurricane katrina, he said it’s ok to loot, mentioning examples like a parent who need diapers and thus looted walmart for it. So he did it because he has no choice but what about those who looted fire arms? Opportunists who break into ppl’s shops or homes and ransack them? Or the violence and rapings that accompany the looting?? Even if you do it out of necessity, at least know what you’re doing is wrong. Sheesh..

Dreamt of Sadako yesterday night.. man ofall things… sadako!! you know, that horrid looking thing from ‘the ring’. towards the end of the dream, nightmare i mean, there was a rising screams, growing higher and louder and then i suddenly woke up! the stupidest bit of it is that i’ve never even watched ‘the ring’!! freaks me out too much. I hate horror movies Asian ones in particular. I don’t get why I should pay money to be scared to death and have a sleepless night after that hahaha i’m so chicken.. talking abt chicken, I ended up *in a hushed tone*… in my parents bed that night… lol.. oh well… hey! i couldn’t sleep after that flashes of twin sister (the korean freaky psycho movie i watched with mom recently.. why on earth did i do that??) and ju on (damn that ‘the grudge’ advert on tv, first thing it flashed was the freaky kid without warning after a stupid creal commercial) kept on running in my head.. freaked out to bits! hahahha how embarassing *blush*

*GRINZ* ain’t this a shameless reminder…

BUZZ WORD OF THE WEEK: HETOX
hetox – n. Taking a much-needed break from boys and the trouble and heartbreak they cause in one’s life.

that coming from cosmo… hahahhaa not that it’s got to do with anything just that yeah occasional hetox or SHEtox might be good in one’s life. be selfish for a moment, do your own thing… accomplish more and only for youself…

Filling up my days with trying to settle down, fix my room up (been away for 10 yrs now from home!) time for those kiddy furnitures to be thrown up *grinz* looking for a white cupboard!! really into clean black and white nowadays.. shall post up some pics when i’m done hee… Soon will settle down to start fixing up a folio and off I go to look for an internship somewhere *crossing fingers*…

Anyone know of an architecture firm in need of some intern help?? good 3D modelling, CAD, and photoshop skill *grinz* 

Reading Anita Desai’s Fasting, Feasting otherwise or spending my evenings on Desperate Housewives marathon with my mom… not too bad just gonna need something more substantial to do soon… not planning to slack any longer if i can help it.

Well… well…. on top of everything I’m turning a quarter of a century old soon! eewww… constant reminder of he fact that i’m still far FAR away from achieving my dreams but time’s running out on me! *ARGH* need to fix that up before hitting quarter life crisis full on… At least i’m turning to be my ownself again nowadays which is good… a little bit (quite abit actually) more spirited than the past year….

*winkz*

life IS a journey… with and end

*side glance at yk*

don’t you think? hehee… well… unless you successfully become an alchemist and find yourself the elixir, death is promised to us the moment each of us was borned and this is definitely a promise that will be kept. no?

*grinz*

adventure is a part of a journey :O)

I’m back home in indonesia for now and I will actually be staying on for awhile this time. Taking a break to reorganise things…. A bit of a sudden decision but it’s for the better for me and my family…. well it’s been awhile, 10 good yrs actually since i stay home for more than 2 or 3 weeks at a time…. It’ll need some adjusments but i know it’ll be good