jos! jos! jos!

Maybe or maybe not..

interestingly enough nothing much is just black and white.

The world is a scary enough place as it is

with enough pressure on each person as it is

with enough consequences waiting for each and everyone of your action as it is

who needs a world of just black and white???

(as if it’s not enough that black and white is all I wear nowadays hehehee)

Ahhh.. don’t give a damn.. just taking things easy.

Had to relearn how to do that to be honest

Realizing the importance of keeping one’s own personal space personal

Keeping a safe distant away

but I think I’m managing it fine right now.

Hmmmm… it isn’t easy going into adulthood.

Or should I quote Jamie cullum’s twentysomething yet again?? *grinz*

Just cruisin’ along quite literally

With a little spontaneous bursts of excitements now and then

Got a cpl of things in the horizon, enough excitement and worries to have to keep me occupied

It’s like putting on that fishbowl effect lenses on

Keeping things right in front of ya focused while everything else on the surrounding’s a blurry swirl

Hehhehehee..

No I swear I’m not high on anything

Ahh one thing maybe

Friendship :O)

Got a pal through it all

And just for that I think I may count me as the luckiest arse around.

Hmm.. just side trekking a little

Just had to mention this, the nohari window, hehe..

Interesting how in spite of the many replies I get in  email format

complete greetings updates and all

(NOT mentioning a word on the nohari window)

Only 2 actually did the window…

Why is that?

Yes someone said I need to update my blog a little

I just did

"Don’t always dream for what you want
But i love to watch good dancers talk
(When you think with your mind you’ve got a place to go now)
My heart is stronger than you all
(When you think with your mind you’ve got a place to go now)
But i love to watch good dancers talk
(When you think with your mind you’ve got a place to go now)
Don’t always dream for what you want
But i love to watch good dancers talk
(When you think with your mind you’ve got a place to go now)
My heart is stronger than you all
(When you think with your mind you’ve got a place to go now)
But i love to watch good dancers talk
(When you think with your mind you’ve got a place to go now)

………….."

                                                                   ~Good dancer, Sleepy Jacksons

a MERRY CHRISTMAS everyone……

                                     & HAPPY NEW YEAR too!!!

Wishing you all a lovely lovely holiday.. and a great year ahead…..

Peace on earth!! *GRINZ*

love,

joseline.

so this is where i slog nowadays.. not too bad just that sometime it gets sooooooooooooooo coooollllllllddddddddddd!!! I’d be wearing a double layer plus a blazer and i’d still be cold! got sick last week full blown cold and i do blame it on the chill..

liking it here so far.. it’s always err… ‘exciting’ *grinz* yeah kinda on alert all the time.. fumbling over several things at once (hey i’m so bad at multi tasking remember?) will be truly evident if you try to call me during office hours. i’ll be like ‘errrr…. yeeaaa… that’s good… yaaa… errr… what did you err.. say again???’ and i bet by the end of the conversation i’d only get half your stories.. heheehehe… *oops* can’t help it you know… i’m working on it though.. it’s bad if i’m actually receiving instructions…

been having problem uploading audio files.. can’t attach any to my blog now coz of that :O( anyone got a suggestion?? it’s so annoying….

my sis coming back this week.. YAY!! it’d be nice to see her again after all these months… talking about family.. the upside and downside living with your parents.. you get on each other’s nerve sometime don’t you? and i do hate hate the fact i can’t drive around myself or take public transport safely in this stupid city! that and of course my mom’s paranoia..

SHE JUST WON’T LET ME!!    *ARGH*

may i say that some people SOOMMMEEE PEOPLE been getting on my nerve lately.. i do try to stay out of ppl’s hair you know? my goodneeesssss… do try to do the same will ya? or at least try not to pounce on ppl who hasn’t done anything to you! *sigh* thus the world…

oh well…. there’s the upside… and then there’s the downside….. i want my own house!! by the beach… and then i can invite all of you to hang out.. beach partyyyy… throw something on the barbie.. bonfire at night.. my chillout music in the air.. some cold caipiroscha.. just chillin… hehe oh well… dream on.. for now.

PS: in need of a good book…. so hard to find one and buy one without winching around here…. may i put that in my christmas list? a tim burton’s book.. including  a bottle of CK Eternity, a funky leather daily planner and Sony Ericsson P990i?? *GRINZ*

sooooo……. update.. update….it’s confirmed for now.. i’ll be based here in jakarta for the forseeable near future at least.. a worker/builder black and white bee i am. ‘lodge’ meself in a ‘big bee hive’ well… more like a two towered bee hive hehehhee.. ain’t so bad… some thing different to my mundane monotonous architecture school life. Still in designing though.. not going to leave that world ever i think.. it’s too ingrained in my brain and blood by now.. hence no i will not be going back to aussie.. as for school.. we’ll see….. still intend to fulfill some dreams i have but tha’t’s on hold for the moment.. maybe when i get too saturated here.. for now.. i’m here :O)

life often takes an unexpected turn… well at least with mine it always does (don’t you think so jenni?? *winkz*)..

it’s funny how the first half of this year is so different to the second half. where it felt all dreamlike yet wrong during the first half of this yr like as if i’m diagonally parked in a parallel universe, i now feel like i’m where i’m meant to be though somewhat still dreamlike.. still in a parallel universe though now i’m more cruising along a broad clear lane rather than stuck awkwardly parked.. either way this year a lot of major major changes happened.. took some leap of faith.. things that probably have pretty big impact in my life. The Big Guy up there hasn’t forgotten me afterall.. i was just impatient.. and stubborn..  :O)

well.. this yr is coming to a close and i really pray it’ll all end well.. and next yr will be a good one…

shanghai waaaasssssss.. amazing!! :O) good good shopping… good partying scene….. lots of interesting architecture to see (geez they look like they just pop right out of bantam comic books!) knocked me right out when i came home.. 11 hours of sleep hehehe… who can blame you with a schedule like ours…

waking up at 10 am.. into the shower.. dress up ready for ‘war’ comfie walking shoes, t-shirt jeans & a slouch bag that looks small but can fit the world in it including my bulky semi auto (camera not the fire arm :OP)..

out for lunch..

and then start the MARATHON around the city.. through one shopping places to another.. fighting your way through people people and MORE people man there are lots of them people over there!! pausing for a quick rummage through numerous brightcolourful things that include anything you could possibly think of, and then on with the price wrestling.. down to 25% of offerred price you should. hold on and pretend to walk off.. you’ll BE called back hehehhe.. gosh my miserable mandarin did improve there (hey crucial to bargain stuff!!) well at least my shopping vocabulary *grinz* how much.. what colour do they come in? do you have a new piece? that’s expensive!! don’t cheat me.. bill please.. etc etc and this goes on…. until darkness falls over the city……

ard 9 it’s back home to this lovely modern modern service apartment we rent around fudan university.. get home, change and out to dinner!! eeksss late dinner i know.. and man it’s often baaadddd baaaddddd food too…. goat meet!! on huge wooden skewers or stri fried in lots of oil! and to top it off tsing tao beer for beverage… yes yes all my jeans and i mean ALL my jeans are tight now…

after dinner it’s off to the city again! for a night of partying… the partying scene ain’t too bad… most of it made of foreigners… DJ sasha was there last week… just too bad my friends chose another club that night… yep good partying.. well of course it’s the company too *winkz*

by the time i hit the sack it’ll be 4 am…..

and the cycle goes on *grinz*

so yes shanghai was amazing…. loving it there i might consider even working there in the future if i have the chance….. the only downside.. it’s still dirty.. dirtyy… diiirrttyyyy…. the air’s dusty and damp (at least while we were there.. it rained now and then).. the toilet smelly hehehehe…. but would you believe me if i say the underground is better than the one in sydney! and the buses too!! so yes shanghai is very very modern.. incredible spurt of growth in the last 10 yrs….

all in all i thoroughly enjoyed shanghai.. never had so much fun visiting a place before… it’s all thanks to the best guide in the world ofcourse.. our dearest diana… and a good easy going enthusiastic travelling partner, agnes :O) we should really do this again sometime

*grinz*

what a break it was……

ps: photos cming up.. too lazy to load ‘em right now hehe….

just a quick one… going to board a plane to shanghai!! yay!! it’s been quite adventure already.. tried to book a ticket last week.. all FULL.. and then ours suddenly went through!!

so we’re supposed to leave on saturday night… via singapore.. talking to me parents before checking in, complaining how we never got our tickets upgraded before…. went in to check in and lo and behold.. we got upgraded to business class! cool….

got to singapore, seeing changi just suddenly make me realise how i miss singapore and ALL my friends there… mentioning it to my travelling partner (agnes dearest, partner in crime hehehe) we got off the plane.. AND we were told that 6 out 8 upgraded passangers can’t go through to SH that night due to overbooking…. we were like.. sooo….. how abt accomodation? taken cared off.. including meals and transport for the whole of the next 24 hrs till the next flight to SH….. hey why not??? so we said YEAH we’ll stay!! it’s cool… got to see some of my dearest friends in singapore i’ve missed sooo much… saw a cpl of awesome bldgs i’ve been wanting to have a look at too.. and get to eat my chicken rice hehehe.. it was awesome… and now…. waiting to board the plane to SH finally..(upgraded ofcourse) this is gonna be a cool one week…. pics and more coming up *grinZ* what a blessing it’s been… and it’s only the begining….

enjoy your hols everyone……. :O)

I’ve been working.. got myself an internship. Actually enjoying it quite a bit, more than uni hahaa funny isn’t it? So many ppl will disagree with me on that. but really, working’s more exciting, at least for now. Maybe I’m just sick of studying after so many years. With architecture and me it’s pretty much a love – hate relationship. I love it yet I hate it and sometime it feels like it hates me. i kinda struggle to find my own little niche within this world of architecture.. where do I fit in exactly? What sort of space do I create? In reality there isn’t much opportunity for dreaming..

But right now the bigger question is what is it do I wanna do next exactly? How can I bring myself where I want to be? Time flies, life is way too short. Being in my mid twenties, how much time do I have left before the cest of youth drains away and it’s all too late? Biggest fear : waking up one day old and alone worst of all realizing it’s too late to realize my dreams.. so now.. how do I get my priority right? and know what is it that I want exactly. I sometime confuse me too.. lol.. oh well… I guess I can only take it as it comes, one at a time. It’s so hard to be focused when there’s so much to accomplish and you just have no idea where to start.. and half of the time you’re worried you’re under qualified to realize your dream, not nearly competent enough.. have I dream too big a dream?? Hmm…

Is it just me or more of you mid twenties out there feel this way too? Am I on the onset of quarter-life crisis? Because half the time now already I feel too old as a beginner.. realizing all those things I thought I’d have by the time I hit the big three-o might not realized yet when the time comes.. *argh*

Lesson no.1 : Fear is paralyzing. That’s what I learned in the past year. Especially the fear of failure. You’re so afraid to fail you don’t even start. So now everyday I’m fighting my fears.. or at least I try to. Can’t remember how I got here.. so when did I start worrying so much?

Lesson no.2 : you don’t rely on anyone for anything but yourself. The world doesn’t owe you a thing. I guess trust is also a bit of a issue with me..

Alright.. alright.. I don’t wanna be sounding bitter but really.. sometime.. right now..

f*ck u world!

Could really be my bumper sticker.. yes I have issues. I too agree.