jos! jos! jos!

just a quick one… going to board a plane to shanghai!! yay!! it’s been quite adventure already.. tried to book a ticket last week.. all FULL.. and then ours suddenly went through!!

so we’re supposed to leave on saturday night… via singapore.. talking to me parents before checking in, complaining how we never got our tickets upgraded before…. went in to check in and lo and behold.. we got upgraded to business class! cool….

got to singapore, seeing changi just suddenly make me realise how i miss singapore and ALL my friends there… mentioning it to my travelling partner (agnes dearest, partner in crime hehehe) we got off the plane.. AND we were told that 6 out 8 upgraded passangers can’t go through to SH that night due to overbooking…. we were like.. sooo….. how abt accomodation? taken cared off.. including meals and transport for the whole of the next 24 hrs till the next flight to SH….. hey why not??? so we said YEAH we’ll stay!! it’s cool… got to see some of my dearest friends in singapore i’ve missed sooo much… saw a cpl of awesome bldgs i’ve been wanting to have a look at too.. and get to eat my chicken rice hehehe.. it was awesome… and now…. waiting to board the plane to SH finally..(upgraded ofcourse) this is gonna be a cool one week…. pics and more coming up *grinZ* what a blessing it’s been… and it’s only the begining….

enjoy your hols everyone……. :O)

I’ve been working.. got myself an internship. Actually enjoying it quite a bit, more than uni hahaa funny isn’t it? So many ppl will disagree with me on that. but really, working’s more exciting, at least for now. Maybe I’m just sick of studying after so many years. With architecture and me it’s pretty much a love – hate relationship. I love it yet I hate it and sometime it feels like it hates me. i kinda struggle to find my own little niche within this world of architecture.. where do I fit in exactly? What sort of space do I create? In reality there isn’t much opportunity for dreaming..

But right now the bigger question is what is it do I wanna do next exactly? How can I bring myself where I want to be? Time flies, life is way too short. Being in my mid twenties, how much time do I have left before the cest of youth drains away and it’s all too late? Biggest fear : waking up one day old and alone worst of all realizing it’s too late to realize my dreams.. so now.. how do I get my priority right? and know what is it that I want exactly. I sometime confuse me too.. lol.. oh well… I guess I can only take it as it comes, one at a time. It’s so hard to be focused when there’s so much to accomplish and you just have no idea where to start.. and half of the time you’re worried you’re under qualified to realize your dream, not nearly competent enough.. have I dream too big a dream?? Hmm…

Is it just me or more of you mid twenties out there feel this way too? Am I on the onset of quarter-life crisis? Because half the time now already I feel too old as a beginner.. realizing all those things I thought I’d have by the time I hit the big three-o might not realized yet when the time comes.. *argh*

Lesson no.1 : Fear is paralyzing. That’s what I learned in the past year. Especially the fear of failure. You’re so afraid to fail you don’t even start. So now everyday I’m fighting my fears.. or at least I try to. Can’t remember how I got here.. so when did I start worrying so much?

Lesson no.2 : you don’t rely on anyone for anything but yourself. The world doesn’t owe you a thing. I guess trust is also a bit of a issue with me..

Alright.. alright.. I don’t wanna be sounding bitter but really.. sometime.. right now..

f*ck u world!

Could really be my bumper sticker.. yes I have issues. I too agree.

A little vogon poetry..

*grinz*

See, see the paranoid sky
Marvel at its big green depths.
Tell me, eleanor do you
Wonder why the hippo ignores you?
Why its foobly stare
makes you feel groggy.
I can tell you, it is
Worried by your tingpariwil facial growth
That looks like
A ice.
What’s more, it knows
Your pert potting shed
Smells of tree frog.
Everything under the big paranoid sky
Asks why, why do you even bother?
You only charm farts.

damn.. hehehhe get your own here..