jos! jos! jos!

some idiot SOME IDIOT out there just spammed my friendster bulletin board with TWENTY of the same posting!!!!!!!!! how rude is that????

*grumble*

i’ve on broadband!!!! finally!! and skype is awesome. check that out www.skype.com with broad band it’s as good as phonecall, good to push phone bills down if you’re in a situation like mine — half of me is way over in sydney, yup feeling like only half a person lately :O( — was on it reading the good book together with mr G… it’s just really nice to be able to bond like that beyond the usual…. it means so much to me to have him as a good friend as well as my darling *smilez*.

you fall in and out of love, yep love is there to stay but i guess that’s the different between ‘love’ and ‘in love’.

love ain’t a sensation that makes you high and all warm in the inside and tingly allover, love is just there when you care about someone so much… sometime you don’t know why you love a person, you just do…. it’s unconditonal and you’re pretty darn lucky if the person you love loves you back.

but that falling in love sensation? it comes and goes… sometime you feel it sometime you don’t. and when that’s on the low, sometime you just have to bank on the friendship bit… because that means you’re sharing everything with your other half. you call him/her first with a news good or bad, you bitch about life to him/her at the slightest annoyance, you go to him/her with your problems, trust him/her with them sometime not really wanting a solution but someone to listen… whatever… you just share everything with that person just because you trust him/her nd the fact that it gives you comfort…. he/she becomes your sanctuary.

i guess that’s why it’s so important for me to bond with my love one at all levels… well yes simply because he’s that special :O) not just another relationship. i hope this will remain. i can only work at it as best as i could. nothing falls free off the sky. you have to put effort in.

right now? i’m just feeling very very blessed *girnz*

well… well….. gave in to friendster blog haha. so what’s with today? isn’t as bad as ytd really, isn’t as bad as the grey-rainy-everything-not-going-the-way-i-want-them-to-ytd…

church choir practice in the evening, it’s real nice to have a place to sing my heart out again. we’re in the middle of a coupe hehe trying to replace some of those boring, stiff same old same old hymns we’ve been singing for ages with some more interesting and challenging repertoire. miss D is leaving *sob* just after she initiated the coupe 2 weeks ago, she’s leaving for 9 months of travel!! on her own!!! yup travel through europe, ends with 4 months of english teaching in beijing… gosh… wish i could just pack up and leave like that. damn….

gotta kick into some real work tomworrow. lots to catch up with. finally get an urge to actually design again. thought that part of me died early last year haha. yeah been on a.. oh what would you call this? designer’s block?? hahaha well it’s equivalent to a writer’s block if i’m a writer. dang…. got me into quite a bit of trouble. all i can come up with after a few hours of facing my drawing board? a rectangle drawn over and over and over. it’s a wonder there isn’t a hole in the shape of a rectangle on my board. *groan* it’sover i hope…. well life’s taken a different turn for me anyway, a really awesome turn :O)

thus my first post….. just another ranting sess….