I can’t get that song out of my head since I watched Grey’s Anatomy season finale. With it I recall heart broken moments when the hurt is so great I can scarcely breathe. Viewing those moments from the outside now made me realise that when moments like that hit, there’s only one thing to do, take a deep breath, pray, move on. keep breathing… You’ll look back someday and smile.
i’m out in the boondocks going from a *** rehearsal
"Much madness is divinest sense.
To a discerning eye; much sense the starkest madness.."
-Emily Dickinson
Ok. so.. I’m in Melbourne! Hopped place again haha..
What an exciting start! now.. I just have to keep myself from being too comfie and dreamie and work my a*se off.
Can’t believe the blessing!! Awesome God :O)
PS: smelly melly is what yh calls melbourne. and he’s the one thing missing that’s keeping this from being so perfect… *sigh* oh well.. thank God for the broadband, the skype and the webcam.
I HATE iTUNES 7!!
1. it hinders my computer from working full speed, uses up way too much RAM, that damn thing! EVEN when I open it on the simplest ‘view as a list’ view with no fancy wancy ‘artwork cover gallery’. I want to be able to listen to my music without slowing down my photoshop or CAD or whatever.. sheesh!
2. the ‘gallery’ version of the view window is so screwed up. It suppose to show one CD cover for ea. album, nice and neat. instead, it breaks up 1 album into many songs! and no matter what i tried silly iTunes will not recognise the group of songs as 1 album. Thus in the ‘gallery’ i have rows of the same CD cover. How stupid!
3. EVERYTIME i plug in my ipod it does not update it, it SYNCHRONISES it. 
do you have any idea how long it takes to sync 3000+ songs??? ARGH!
4. anddd it won’t let my iPod being plugged w/o sync-ing it! EVEN when i pick ‘manually manage your songs’!! hey i have different collections of music at work an at home! and i want to be able to listen to my iPod music on my office desktop!
5. the moment i unpick the ’sync music’ option, it DELETES ALL my songs in my iPod!!! 
AUUGHHHH!!!! apple, apple, apple…. what on earth are you thinking of?
or maybe i’m just a tech idiot who cannot get iTunes 7? what kind of general music player software needs you to be a comp science geek to work it out???
an idiotic one. 
It has only been two weeks. Never, I felt so much peace in my life. Giving everything, anger, shame, worries, failures, everything, my broken-self essentially, in to the hands of God released all the burdens of my heart, eases my shoulders from the weight they’ve been carrying and my sleep from all the restlesness.. But most of all, I ceased being an angry person. Thank you Lord for taking my broken-life into your hands, for receiving it no matter how ugly and deformed, for still accepting me who has stepped and spit onto Your face time and again.. Thank you.. I know, in your hands, it will bloom into something beautiful…
If blood will flow when flesh and steel are one
Drying in the colour of the evening sun
Tomorrow’s rain will wash the stains away
But something in our minds will always stay
Perhaps this final act was meant
To clinch a lifetime’s argument
That nothing comes from violence and nothing ever could
For all those born beneath an angry star
Lest we forget how fragile we are
On and on the rain will fall
Like tears from a star, like tears from a star
On and on the rain will say
How fragile we are, how fragile we are
On and on the rain will fall
Like tears from a star, like tears from a star
On and on the rain will say
How fragile we are, how fragile we are
How fragile we are, how fragile we are
~Sting & The Police
STATEMENT BY CARD. TARCISIO BERTONE, S.D.B., SECRETARY OF STATE
Saturday, 16 September 2006
Given the reaction in Muslim quarters to certain passages of the Holy Father’s address at the University of Regensburg, and the clarifications and explanations already presented through the Director of the Holy See Press Office, I would like to add the following:
- The position of the Pope concerning Islam is unequivocally that expressed by the conciliar document Nostra Aetate: "The Church regards with esteem also the Muslims. They adore the one God, living and subsisting in Himself; merciful and all-powerful, the Creator of heaven and earth, Who has spoken to men; they take pains to submit wholeheartedly to even His inscrutable decrees, just as Abraham, with whom the faith of Islam takes pleasure in linking itself, submitted to God. Though they do not acknowledge Jesus as God, they revere Him as a prophet. They also honor Mary, His virgin Mother; at times they even call on her with devotion. In addition, they await the day of judgment when God will render their deserts to all those who have been raised up from the dead. Finally, they value the moral life and worship God especially through prayer, almsgiving and fasting" (no. 3).
- The Pope’s option in favor of inter-religious and inter-cultural dialogue is equally unequivocal. In his meeting with representatives of Muslim communities in Cologne, Germany, on 20 August 2005, he said that such dialogue between Christians and Muslims "cannot be reduced to an optional extra," adding: "The lessons of the past must help us to avoid repeating the same mistakes. We must seek paths of reconciliation and learn to live with respect for each other’s identity".
- As for the opinion of the Byzantine emperor Manuel II Paleologus which he quoted during his Regensburg talk, the Holy Father did not mean, nor does he mean, to make that opinion his own in any way. He simply used it as a means to undertake - in an academic context, and as is evident from a complete and attentive reading of the text - certain reflections on the theme of the relationship between religion and violence in general, and to conclude with a clear and radical rejection of the religious motivation for violence, from whatever side it may come. On this point, it is worth recalling what Benedict XVI himself recently affirmed in his commemorative Message for the 20th anniversary of the Inter-religious Meeting of Prayer for Peace, initiated by his predecessor John Paul II at Assisi in October 1986: " … demonstrations of violence cannot be attributed to religion as such but to the cultural limitations with which it is lived and develops in time. … In fact, attestations of the close bond that exists between the relationship with God and the ethics of love are recorded in all great religious traditions".
- The Holy Father thus sincerely regrets that certain passages of his address could have sounded offensive to the sensitivities of the Muslim faithful, and should have been interpreted in a manner that in no way corresponds to his intentions. Indeed it was he who, before the religious fervor of Muslim believers, warned secularized Western culture to guard against "the contempt for God and the cynicism that considers mockery of the sacred to be an exercise of freedom".
- In reiterating his respect and esteem for those who profess Islam, he hopes they will be helped to understand the correct meaning of his words so that, quickly surmounting this present uneasy moment, witness to the "Creator of heaven and earth, Who has spoken to men" may be reinforced, and collaboration may intensify "to promote together for the benefit of all mankind social justice and moral welfare, as well as peace and freedom" (Nostra Aetate no. 3).
Taken from Vatican’s Official Website.
The Pope’s Full Speech can be found here.
"The intention here is… of broadening our concept of reason… Only thus do we become capable of that genuine dialogue of cultures and religions so urgently needed today"
~Pope Benedict XVI
It struck me yesterday. Since when am I so angry with everything around me, with the world i’m in.. It seemed like I’ve been angry for so damn long I can’t remember when it started. Actually I do. It all started when I chose to be angry rather than depressed. It was much easier to handle and instead of making you want to stop living, the raging torrents inside you keep you living. Though it slowly poisons you bit by bit and before you realise it, it becomes you.
maybe it’s time to stop?
Lately I realise it drives everyone around me away. If the damage has really been done, it has driven one person away and that will be my regret for a long long time. Someone who shares your visions, aspiration and passion is just too hard to find.
I want to start making peace with my life and with that I hope everything else around me. It may be a little late but this has to stop before I lose more than I already have.
Though I realise driving my anger away will leave me with sadness.. It’s probably time to face that. The wounds of the past did leave me with blaring red scars.. can I really do anything so they won’t show as much? I don’t want to be too jaded about life.. I’m too young to be so dissillusioned about love, hope, dreams..
The air is like a knife cutting through you
A room in the house is always warm
Stretched down on the bathroom floor thinking
Of fair days your future may hold
Love comes like surprise ice on the water
Love comes like surprise ice at dawn
Love comes at dawn
Deprived all the light of colours
The world ends at your window tree
Darkness creates these illusions
That pale days can teach you to see
Rain falls but no life is given
Weeks pass, no progress is made
Past sometimes takes you with soft hands
And all that surrounds you will fade
Been feeling like I have a lot to say lately and yet I don’t feel like saying anything at the same time..
à Best nerve soother next to Zoloft, Prosac, Wellbutrin and what have you.. :
Kings of Convenience…
Not crazy on popping pills hahahhahaa.. kidding lah..
Not too sure what’s disturbing me lately anyway.. maybe that’s it.. not knowing exactly where I’m going at this point. I hate this I-know-there’s-gotta-be-more-to-life-than-this feeling..
Tables.. table.. looking for a coffee table is like looking for a guy hahahaha.. going around looking for one to do my work on in my room made me see it that way. You either do up your room (read: Life) and then go looking for the perfect table OR you go around, find a table, put into your room and realize you need to rearrange the whole damn room just to fit the bloody table in hehee…. Go ahead keep on changing the damn table with a different one every cpl of weeks or so and you’ll find you have a room gone crazy coz you kept on rearranging it over different tables..
Ok ok let’s not get carried away… it’s just a coffe table for chimpsake!!
Then again a dear someone who’s pretty much pissed off and burnt from a recent relationship came up with THIS one:
Guys are like jewelleries, when they ain’t the real thing, and you happen to like that particular one at the moment you keep on wearing it till you’re bored. If it’s the real thing, you wear it for life coz you’ll never tire of it. Prob is the fake may fool you into thinking it’s the real stuff!!
Hahahhahahaaaa…
Sorry you guys out there.. didn’t mean to be so cruel (I know she didn’t).. in the heat of passionate anger la..
See? Feel better already…. Talking rubbish is always so therapeutic.. Ahh Monday blues…. Damn Monday blues..
That’s what you get spending the whole damn weekend with a hangover plus exhaustion plus gastric plus migraine (the last 3 items been a constant friend for the past 2 weeks or so)
I need to unwind a little.. relax a little.. get away from it all a little….
I NEED A
HOLIDAY !!
To an isolated beach on an island would be nice…. Where there’s no phone connection would be great.
Maybe I just need exercise…. I need my yoga sessions!!!!!
Aniihhhwweeiiiiiiiiii.. got a bit of designing to do…
Better get on with it now hehehe…
"Being misunderstood by someone is vexation. Being misunderstood by everyone is tragedy."
~Liu Shahe
